For Mr Calvino

Italo Calvino said: The more enlightened our houses are, the more their walls ooze ghosts. Describe the ghosts that live in this house: Image credit: “love Don’t live here anymore…” – © 2009 Robb North – made available under Attribution 2.0 Generic

 

Country ghosts

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wednesday night

it appeared after a long day , i kept staring at it, trying to check myself if i was being right or wrong. It felt real, it looked real so it has to be real, but deep inside i was hoping it wasn’t . So then i  wondered is this what people feel when they face life in the fraction of a second? for how long you´ve been there? was i that sleep i didn’t noticed you before? what about if you fade away and we  pretend we never met huh?

You always have the choice

I have felt lost

here alone in my home

wanting to shout everything my heart holds

i have walked through the streets

looking up for familiar faces

feeling the air that reaches my lungs

and i wonder why so scared ?

what are you waiting for?

its good it hasn’t been as planned

that you can surrender

to your own mastermind

and just be like a person should be

 

this is what you have asked

What was the one experience that completely changed your life? What happened? How did it change your life?

I can´t say it was just one experience, i guess its a ever evolving experience, i am aware that i am connecting the dots of my life script, and every experience, feels different, and i get over it in different ways. It could be love that hurts so much that makes me physically sick, it can be watching my closest friends or family fighting against a desease they can’t beat, it can be the longing for my childhood memories that are far away. The thing that surprises me every time is my ability to amaze myself, by trying to experience life through everyday, paying attention to the little things, to smiling to strangers, smelling the rain, cuddling with my cats. Well i guess my life is been changing a lot by just paying more attention.

Our off hour

This break was all i could think of from the moment we got in, sacred alone time without so many voices. At the beginning I was kind of shy and reserved because I couldn’t understand them, I really made an effort, i stretched my ears and my brain, so I could comprehend them. Nowadays feels way much easier, even though there are things I wish I could not understand and remain naive. I take a look at myself and my mates and realise this wont be permanent, that’s there’s gotta be more interesting things to do than ran away.